I don’t know how or when I’ll know, but I know I will when our paths finally cross. I know it will make sense when it is meant to, because I would be looking at the woman I’ll marry and that woman would be you.
I have to admit that I’ve been dreaming about you for quite a bit. I dream of all the things we will do together and how much joy will it bring to our lives. I dream of your smile, your laugh, your personality, your deepest insecurities, and just about everything that makes me so lucky to be with you. I dream of all the intricacies of a life I cannot wait to create with you, one that would get us to share every thread of emotion on a level so profound it is bound to knot our hearts forever. I dream of our first date, our first dance, and our first kiss. I dream of the day I am going to propose to you and look up to see my reflection in your beautiful eyes. I dream of our wedding day with our families and friends celebrating with us. I dream of the babies we are going to make and how I pray that they grow up to be kind and honest people. I dream of growing old with you while we reminisce about the journey we have had, the thick and thin we have been through, and how grateful we are for it.
In the meantime, I want you to know a couple of things. I want us to live every moment passionately, whether it is one of love or conflict. I want you to be my best friend and I want to be yours. I want us to talk about things that excite us, worry us, and make us think about our future together. I want to really know you, because you are my forever person. I want you to cry on my shoulders and I want to cry on yours. I want to listen to everything you have to tell me, and I promise I will find none of it trivial or not worth my time. I want to fight with you, make up, and do it all over again. I want us to plan our future together, while we squeeze in a number of spontaneous spikes (a trail of Machu Picchu, maybe—we will talk about it later). I want a life with you that I will always look back at with a smile on my face.
In the midst of all the testing times we are bound to face, I want you to know that I will always love you.
When your insecurities and self-doubts weigh you down and you feel lost and confused, I will love you.
When you feel self-conscious about how you look and you forget how beautiful you really are, I will tell you how crazy you are to even think that, and I will love you.
When you are having problems at work and it starts to overwhelm you, I will talk to you about it, and I will love you.
When you feel sick and drained and your energy seeps out of your body, I will love you.
I might not know you yet, but boy, you have been living in my dreams for quite a while. How lovely would it be to put a face to you? Till then, I will wait, because you will always be worth every second of it.