The one thing I abhor the most about myself is how often I chase after people.
Unconsciously, unknowingly, and unintentionally we tend to lose ourselves while doing so.
Chasing after a person means chasing after time — for more time with the person and less time for ourselves.
Chasing after a person means chasing after the small things — their birthday gift, their Christmas present, their celebratory meal after passing a test, the surprise at their doorstep in the middle of the night. The list goes on and on. It never ends and our own list remains countless and unfulfilled.
Chasing after a person means putting them before ourselves.
I guess what I’m trying to say is there is no “me” in chasing them. We focus so much on garnering their attention all the time that we forget to pay attention to ourselves.
We’ve willingly put in waves after waves of effort for them without sparing any for ourselves. We’ve cared so much for their happiness and well-being that we’ve neglected our own.
The funny thing is, we know it’s exhausting yet we continue doing it anyway. We are unfortunately all guilty of that.
We comfort ourselves by convincing our mind he/she is worth it. We lie to ourselves that one day, maybe they’ll realize and reciprocate our intentions. God knows it’s poison.
“Because if you have to run after something, it means that it doesn’t want to stand still, it doesn’t want to be caught; it doesn’t want to stop at your door.”
If there’s anything we should chase, chase our dreams.
Because when we chase our dreams, time will fit perfectly to our calling.
Because when we chase our dreams, the right people will enter our lives at a comfortable phase.
Because when we chase our dreams, the small things and big things don’t matter. Everything that comes brings us one step closer to our dreams.
We’ll find joy in easily every part and parcel of our lives. Sure, there will be obstacles and roadblocks and thunderstorms along the way, but knowing that we’re working on something that involves our personal selves and happiness, that’s when it’s truly worth it.
That’s when we look back, and realize there’s one thing we adore about ourselves.