This Is A Letter To My Almost


Would you believe me if I told you that you made me feel again? For a few months of my life, you brought me happiness in such little time. My past had led me to believe that I wouldn’t experience this feeling again. I found myself randomly smiling all day. Those nights we stayed up till 3 am were the best. You allowed yourself to open up to me and I can’t tell you how much it meant. I was okay with losing sleep because It was to stay up talking to you.

I remember how you looked when you talked to me, you always looked me in my eyes. I wish that I could have pressed pause on the time. To have the chance to memorize you. God those eyes. I would see your eyes in every bright green pair of eyes. I shared all my thoughts and secrets with you. Things I’ve never told anyone. I’m glad I did because now I could breathe again and I feel peace. I told you that I felt like things were too good right now and I was just waiting for things to change. Well, it happened but just too soon. I never planned on you changing your mind.

Maybe it was bad timing for us, or that I couldn’t give you what you wanted. Either way, I thank you for the memories and feelings that you left with me. I thank you for showing me it’s okay to trust again. I think that people come in our lives for a reason. Maybe your reason was to show me it was okay to let my guard down. I sincerely thank you for helping me be the best version of myself. I know that I am worth being loved and treasured. Thank you for sharing your world with me and for letting me be a part of it

I’ll always have a soft spot for you, and I’ve accepted it. Time was just taking its sweet time erasing you, but tonight I have decided to fully let you go. I’ve met someone new and although he’s not you, it brings me happiness to know that he wants all of me. Not just a piece of me. I hope you find exactly what you’re looking for. And know that I’ll always be here for you, no matter how far off we both wander.


Your almost

P.S. I never told you, but I was falling for you