Please Let Me Love You Like This


I want to love you the way I want you to love me.

I want to reassure you every day how much I love you. I want to text you long sweet messages before you go to sleep so you’ll have something to smile at first thing in the morning. I want to send you handwritten letters to let you feel that ‘old school love’. I want to bring you breakfast some random mornings because cooking bacon is all I’ll ever know. I want to surprise you all the time because it means I have plans for you, us, and I know it makes you happy. I want to bring you to every family gathering to let you feel welcome because I know you’ll be part of it, too. I want to post candid photos of you, us, on every social media accounts I have just to show the world that you are mine and you’re someone worth showing off. I want to take you out on a random date at night just to see the stars shine with you by my side. I want to try something new, like painting or drawing, just to have you as my subject, for always. I want to give you something whenever we meet, like a card or letter, just to let you know you’ve been on my mind all day despite my busy schedule. I want to give you time without you even asking for it.

These are few things I would do but I couldn’t because it hurts to know you wouldn’t do the same to me because…

I also want to love you the way you love me.

I want to accept the entire you including your bitter past and attitude. I want to call you every night until we fall asleep so you’d be the last thing on my mind. I want to drop you home most of the night, especially times when you are not feeling well. I want to bring you your favorite food whenever I make you upset. I want to learn how not to be upset on little things because it’s not worth fighting and I don’t want to see you hurting. I want to learn how to stop being petty because it’s not worth risking our relationship. I want to learn how to stop letting my emotions consume my mind to avoid impulsive decisions that will ruin us. I want to make you laugh without even trying. I want to tell you how amazing you are. I want to tell you how I’ll not survive life without you beside me. I want to love you despite my sleepless nights because of work. I want to tell you ‘I love you’ randomly. I want to show you my soft side to let you know how sincere I am. I want to hold your hand every time I am with you because your presence brightens up my life. I want to kiss your forehead any time possible. I want to hug you because your warmth calms me.

Despite our differences in showing our affection, we still have one thing in common. And that, my love, is everything I’m asking for.