Everyone deserves a little downtime; everyone deserves a lazy Sunday on the couch or a day of the week where they simply choose to do nothing. Yet, the heart of self-destruction lies in knowing you “shouldn’t” but still “doing.”
We fall asleep together and it’s just like old times when I thought your stupid mind would never break my poor, poor, stupid heart. But you did so…
I am a girl who got everything she wanted but was always made to feel like it wasn’t enough. “You can never be happy,” he used to tell me, and oh — how that still hurts to hear.
We have no choice but to roll with the punches, move on, and just ride.
I have to accept and taste the sting of being rejected from jobs, of late nights and small paychecks, of potential heartbreak or potential forever.
I was pretty ridiculous and rowdy and high school and now I look back, shake my head and think “idiot.”
In 10 years we will be 30-somethings and someone else on some other website will tell us how to raise our families, what jobs we should have, and what our average day should look like.
I am haunted by that Charlie Brown quote “I think I’m afraid of being happy because whenever I get too happy something bad always happens.”
Bad sex is pretty easy to realize, but mediocre sex is elusive.