You realize that there is more to love than saying “I love you” and there is more to a relationship than words. You realize that love is more than phone calls with abrupt endings. Love is more than endless talks about him, his hopes, and his dreams. It is more than waiting for him to ask about your day.
As our relationship continues to stand still, I know that I will never be your girlfriend. You will never think about the possibility of making me your wife, or the mother of your children.
Instead of running from ourselves.
I’ve watched them choose grace, understanding, and kindness over destruction and madness.
If you are tired of Facebook statuses, stop reading them. Do not, however, use your privilege to silence those around you. Do not think for one minute this is in your power.
As I filled the pages with words of falling in love with you, I fell further away from you than ever.
“Pause,” he said. But all I want is to rewind, replay, and then fast forward. We can’t be.
Now here we are, 29, single and forced together as we stand by the sides of our friends on their wedding day.
I search for him across the sea of hungry faces. Hoping to catch his eye, but he’s not within sight.